Geschreven door Nylo de Meijer.

Dan Searle over verwerkingsproces overlijden Tom Searle

De gitarist van Architects, Tom Searle, overleed op 21 augustus op 28-jarige leeftijd. De band heeft besloten om de komende tournee af te maken, ondanks dat men dit niet verwacht had na dit vreselijke verlies.

Dan Searle, de tweelingbroer van Tom en tevens de drummer van Architects, heeft via zijn persoonlijke Instagram account een boekje open gedaan over zijn gevoel. “Ik heb al vaak gehad dat mensen met mij praten over Tom, en dat is te begrijpen, maar ik ben erg zelfbewust over hoe ik mezelf gedraag tijdens deze conversaties. Als ik iedere keer in tranen uitbarst als het onderwerp wordt aangesneden, zou ik gevaarlijk uitgedroogd raken en constant emotioneel zijn, dus als ik koel overkom rondom dit onderwerp, weet dan alsjeblieft dat het ongelofelijk moeilijk is voor mij om telkens deze wonden opnieuw te openen.“, legt Dan Searle uit. Het volledige bericht vind je hieronder.

It's hard to get my head around how much has happened since this photo was taken. In this moment Tom's illness was very much at bay and the band had reached a level that we'd never even dreamt of. It felt like we had everything we'd ever wanted and more. It's frightening how quickly your entire life can get turned upside down. Shortly after this night in London, everything associated with the band faded into the background and Tom's wellbeing became the only thing that mattered. I remember bumping into someone that I went to school with at a pub in Brighton around 6 months before this show. He was never a friend of mine but I knew of him well enough to engage in a conversation. He hadn't had the same fortune as me in my life and he had caught wind of the bands moderate success. He told me to enjoy it while it lasted because 'you never know when it could end'. I dismissed his comments as bitter but perhaps there is more truth to what he said than I cared to admit at the time. Although the band isn't over at this point, this chapter of the band is. I'm hellbent on keeping Tom's legacy alive and moving this band forward, I want to do it for him, I want to do him proud and I can think of no greater inspiration. Everyday is a challenge and I miss him intensely. I'm still trying to figure out exactly where to go from here. My perspective on life has been shattered and I'm still picking up the pieces. I do know that I'm grateful for what we've built and I'm grateful for my family and friends. Playing shows again has felt good and I am genuinely so excited to start our next tour. I've had many people want to speak to me about Tom, and understandably so, but I've felt very self conscious of how I behave during those conversations. If I broke down in tears every time the topic was broached I'd be dangerously dehydrated and emotionally fraught, so if I seem cold on the subject please understand that it's hard for me to repeatedly open up those wounds. UK and Europe, see you all soon x

Een foto die is geplaatst door Dan Searle (@danarchitects) op 1 Okt 2016 om 3:02 PDT

Op dinsdag 18 oktober staat Architects in de Amsterdamse Melkweg, samen met Stick To Your Guns en Bury Tomorrow. Eind augustus bevestigde Architects dat het nummer “Gone With the Wind” geschreven is met Tom Searle in gedachten. Hieronder kun je dit nummer beluisteren.